why so paranoid, young writer?

this is a high pressure situation because:

a)i take pride in the way i write. in fact, if i am not proud of the things i write, i don't put them up, so this is a space for me to start letting go of things that are bad, and keeping them around to remind me. i cannot only hold the good, but i need to have the bad to hold them up against, much like a lightbox which i can let shine onto the pieces of writing that i love, knowing which lines to keep, and which ones to ditch, like an old spare tire at the local dump.

b)others might stumble across this, and if they do, i can see it now, they will hate it, and never come back again. but i know this is the self-loathing man in me. even if people hate my writing, i know that my identity is not in my writing, and that i can take hold of the fact that i find happiness in many other places.

so it continues to begin. i am having trouble getting into the habit of writing every day, as one would be able to tell by looking at the time that passed between the first post and this one.